Chapters in Life
Yesterday was the one year anniversary of my mother-in-law's death. It was an emotional day for me. This last year - the last chapter - of my life has taken so many twists and turns. The emotional turmoil that I've been through is - and has been - overwhelming. It's brought me to my knees too many times - more than I care to admit.
But I've survived yet another storm.
I'm not the same person I was a year ago. I've come through another fire, another chapter, in my life. I didn't break. Am I stronger? I don't know. I feel...different. Less open, less optimistic, more realistic. Which is sad, actually. I've always been a "life through rose colored glasses" type of gal. Now, I'm not.
I have some heart scars that will heal (or soften) in time. But here's the thing... I know that there are many more chapters in my life that will bring more heartbreak, more tears, more let downs, more grief, more worry, more stress. But, there will also be more good times, more laughter, more smiles, more hugs, more sun, more....life.
I'm hoping that I have some calm before the next storm. A time for me to coast for a little bit - to experience life on even ground.
But I've survived yet another storm.
I'm not the same person I was a year ago. I've come through another fire, another chapter, in my life. I didn't break. Am I stronger? I don't know. I feel...different. Less open, less optimistic, more realistic. Which is sad, actually. I've always been a "life through rose colored glasses" type of gal. Now, I'm not.
I have some heart scars that will heal (or soften) in time. But here's the thing... I know that there are many more chapters in my life that will bring more heartbreak, more tears, more let downs, more grief, more worry, more stress. But, there will also be more good times, more laughter, more smiles, more hugs, more sun, more....life.
I'm hoping that I have some calm before the next storm. A time for me to coast for a little bit - to experience life on even ground.
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