My anxiety has been at fever pitch for quite awhile..and today is no exception. You know the phrase, "there is only one constant in life, and that is life is always changing". Ohhh so true.
I'm a flexible person ..I truly am...but there are so many changes happening in my world that it's kicking my ass. I'm a classic Virgo...I worry...about everything and everyone. I worry about things that happened 20 years ago, relive conversations and speculate about "I wonder what they meant", and I worry about things that may not ever happen. But me, being me, I want to plan the scenarios so that I'm prepared for every possible outcome...you know, so my anxiety is more manageable when "it happens, because I'll be 'prepared'. What the hell, Sherry!! Nothing like being a little neurotic!
My work world is changing, my friend's lives are changing (yes, I have anxety FOR them too...because"how will their changes affect me?) and my personal life is changing.
Everything is changing and I am trying really hard to manage it all.
The yoga teacher in me tells my brain to just breathe in, breathe out...to not worry and steal time from the beauty of today...to live in the present..this moment.
Ok. In this monent, I'm a hot mess!
I refer back to a mantra that I stated to myself every.single day six years ago when my anxiety and depression had me in the depth of despair.
I am Sherry,
In all my messy glory.
I will breathe, I will live, I will survive.
