I'm sitting here in reflection. I can't tell if my mood is affected because of my S.A.D, anxiety, stressful situations of the last few weeks, or a combination of all these things.  I just know that I have seemed to have lost my mojo.  

While I'm not in the depths of despair - I have been much lower than this - but I am also very cognizant that something 'isn't right'.   I don't care about my workouts, my diet is for shit, I want to stay home and do nothing but sit in my recliner and zone out watching (but not watching) TV, or sleep (if you can call it that).   I know what I need to do to get through it.  I just need to get in the right headspace to do it.....I'm stuck in a proverbial Catch-22 right now. 

Plan.  That is what a Virgo does best, so that is what I shall do; develop a plan!  In truth, that's the easy part, it's the follow through that will be hard. 

I did have something good happen to me though.  I was nominated and received an award for my work on the Critical Incident Response Team (CIRT). Although I resigned from the team, they thought enough of me to still nominate me for an award.   That touched my heart.