I'm sitting here in reflection. I can't tell if my mood is affected because of my S.A.D, anxiety, stressful situations of the last few weeks, or a combination of all these things.  I just know that I have seemed to have lost my mojo.  

While I'm not in the depths of despair - I have been much lower than this - but I am also very cognizant that something 'isn't right'.   I don't care about my workouts, my diet is for shit, I want to stay home and do nothing but sit in my recliner and zone out watching (but not watching) TV, or sleep (if you can call it that).   I know what I need to do to get through it.  I just need to get in the right headspace to do it.....I'm stuck in a proverbial Catch-22 right now. 

Plan.  That is what a Virgo does best, so that is what I shall do; develop a plan!  In truth, that's the easy part, it's the follow through that will be hard. 

I did have something good happen to me though.  I was nominated and received an award for my work on the Critical Incident Response Team (CIRT). Although I resigned from the team, they thought enough of me to still nominate me for an award.   That touched my heart.  

03/21/2026

 I am giving myself full permission to do nothing this weekend.  My longtime friend, Becky, and I are at Airbnb this weekend - in our town!  Yes, we chose not to drive out of the city and instead, partake of a lovely home in our fair city.  

One of my little projects to do this weekend, is cleaning up my emails and digital content.  When I logged in to Blogspot, I was astonished at how long it had been since I last made a post.  Time flies, It's scary!

Or perhaps, it's that my life is status quo.... nothing changes.  Good? Bad?  I'm going with good.  I hate the chaos and drama...so boring and predictable is my preference.  Some may argue that you're not really living if you don't have drama and chaos.   I beg to differ.  I live just fine without all the nonsense and bs. 

I get up, go to work, do my job, go to the gym, come home, eat supper, watch my TV shows, read a book, check out social media, and go to bed at 10pm.  Rinse and Repeat.   

I'm still working; I'll retire in 2027 when I turn 65 (Medicare age). I will have 28 years in with the State at that time.  At least, that is the plan....one cannot predict what will happen from one day to the next, I hope the Universe won't throw my any curveballs! Work is going very well; I have a great team of ladies in my department, and we kick out a lot of work. We're cross training quite heavily; I feel confident that when I leave, I will have shared all the knowledge I possess, and my exit will be seamless. 

My, and hubby's health has been good (knock on wood!).  The usual aches and pains but nothing that we can't handle.   I will be scheduling myself for a knee replacement surgery in the fall though.  I'm not looking forward to it.  My bum knee is starting to affect my quality of life.

As of now, I don't have anything planned for the summer months except flower gardening, bicycling, and enjoying the sunshine.   A true Northerner, I can pack a LOT of living in four months of sun (April-Aug) IF Mother Nature cooperates. 

Until next time, Blogstalkers! Be safe and be well!