I have something To Say

I listen to the news and my heart breaks for the families of murdered law enforcement personnel.  Yesterday, I wore Blue in support of the fallen men and women of Law Enforcement that have lost their lives due to senseless acts of violence. 

This is in retaliation to police brutality I suppose....at least that's how the people doing the senseless acts are justifying it.  I say it's bullshit.  

It takes guts and courage to report to duty dressed in uniform.  Corrections Officers, Police and Sheriff, BCI, FBI, etc.... all put their lives on the line to keep the public safe.  And this is their repayment?   Gratitude?

No.  It's senseless, it's brutal and totally uncalled for.

To my law enforcement brothers and sisters...keep the faith.  What you do DOES make a difference - to 99.9% of the population.  To those .01% - go crawl in a hole and stay there!

I couldn't sleep

As usual, I couldn't sleep last night.  Woke up at 3 am and my mind started thinking;

I wonder who else is awake right now and wishes they could fall back asleep.

What am I going to wear to work.
I wonder if it's clean
What movies are playing in town
Sure hope Wendy has a good shift at work
Hope my friend is enjoying their time in Medora
What am I gonna do this weekend
Have to remember to put up sign on studio door
Remember to wish Valerie a happy birthday
Remember to send Char and Chris healing energy
I should take an ICAP dog out today
I need to practice new ICAP commands

It gets worse.  But not enough room to go on.  Oh this crazy mind of mine! :)

Energy

So normally I give Mondays a whole bunch of negative energy.  Until someone (close friend) asked me why? I had you stop and think.  Monday really hasn't done anything bad to me.  Wrll, other than follow a weekend. 

I did eventually think of my reason though.  Mondays are bad days because OF giving it negative energy.   And because of that negative energy, the little things are magnified exponentially  (that word makes me smile).

So this morning I woke up, smiled, said prayers of healing and comfort to my friends experiencing difficulty, recited the Sanskrit poem, "Look Well To This Day", oiled up with essential oils and attacked Monday with Positive energy  (for a change).

Know what?  It's 5:13 and Monday was good. 

Wonder if this plan works on other days of the week also?!

#newplanofattack

Been A While

Yes, I've been absent from writing.  The last six months have been a bit difficult for me.  It hasn't been that I've had a loss of word.  I have many thoughts and words floating around in my head.

I'm still feeling a sense of grief for the loss of my mother-in-law, Ella.  I've learned, through counseling, her death triggered some unaddressed grief issues.   

Add to the grief, the menopausal symptoms of hot flashes, night sweats, insomnia, house renovations, work overload, reunion planning, etc....let's just say I was in a tailspin.

I did go to the doctor to address the menopause symptoms and lack of sleep.   She prescribed Effexor (antidepressant) to help with the symptoms.  In the end, I opted not to take it.  First, the side effects scare the crap out of me.  Secondly, I believe I can rise up out of this and work through this.  

I'm certainly better than I was two months ago and even a month ago.   I've been really using goDesana Essential Oils. I've been exercising more and watching my diet more closely.  I haven't been able to do my morning yoga practice yet but that will come in time.   My yoga mat is the only place that I feel at peace.

I'm going to try to blog more often.  I like writing and it helps to put things down  - to vent.   For those of you reading this - especially family members - do not despair.   I'm fine.  Just working through a difficult period.  No one is immune from having difficult times.  No one.  And if you say that you're a ray of sunshine 100% of the time, I'm calling the bullshit flag on you.  :)

Namaste'